Finally See What's Good.

You (me) can really feel the sense of resentment in this.

Very well written.

Really portrays that one really get the concept of apologizing.

Or admitting one's wrong.

suka lagu-lagu and kata-kata bermakna.

if you're just saying it for the sake of saying it, save it.

Forgiveness.

Allah itu Maha Pengampun,

Manusia?

Dosa sesama manusia hanya terhapus apabila manusia memaafkan,

Reacting from hurt,

I've said some things,

Grim thoughts went in and out my mind.

For that, I apologize,

For direct and indirect things,

That might have hurt you,

Dan membawa dosa kepadaku.

And I forgive you for the hurt.

;)

Things may be a certain way in your mind but a very different one when it gets out in the open. Often I find myself realizing something new when I share my thoughts with those around me rather than just keeping it to myself. One too many times, I realized how I really feel about a certain issue and it is totally different from what I thought it is. Not all of us are wired the same way but this works for me. To talk it out to sort things out. And I'm really greatful to you and you and you. I love you and you and you.

I guess this is not goodbye afterall.

~ there

There's something sweet

And almost kind

But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined

But now he's dear, and so unsure

I wonder why I didn't see it there before

She glanced this way

I thought I saw

And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw

No it can't be, I'll just ignore

But then she's never looked at me that way before

New and a bit alarming

Who'd have ever thought that this could be?

True that he's no Prince Charming

But there's something in him that I simply didn't see

tagged by anea

Hanan Hayati!!
Panjang gile ok?
Tapi sbb I like the number 21 akak layankan je la awak nih..
=P

1. Apakah benda yang paling penting dalam hidup kamu?
erm.. ability to speak? =P (saye ckp banyaaaaak)

2. Apakah benda terakhir yang kamu beli dengan wang sendiri?
tiket wayang 'The Day The Earth Stood Still' (not a must-see)

3. Di manakah tempat impian perkahwinan kamu?
At home! (I'm conventional)

4. Berapa lama anda rasa hubungan kamu berkekalan?
Hubungan2 yang ade skarang ni macam2 =) InsyaAllah a lifetime.

5. Adakah anda dilamun cinta?
Maybe yes. Maybe no.

6. Di manakah restoran terakhir kamu makan malam?
Cherating Steak House.

7. Namakan buku terakhir yang kamu beli?
Cleo November (Jarang beli buku tapi sbb kene tunggu sape ntah lambat!)

8. Apakah nama penuh kamu?
Siti Nurfairuz binti Mohd Fathir

9. Kamu lebih senang dengan mak atau ayah?
Mak kot.. Ke Bapak? Hermm.. Hermm.. Dedua pon senang..

10. Namakan seseorang yang kamu ingin jumpa untuk pertama kalinya dalam hidup anda?
Unnamed.

11.Sebutkan 8 nama sahabat yang paling rapat dengan kamu?
Ijah (nk letak gak sahabat)
Chris
Nadia Munji
Sapil
Yeen
Nadia, Nad, Piz =P
Partai. D, A, S, Z
Mila
Lapan??

12. Adakah kamu mencuci pakaian anda sendiri?
Sendiri pakai washing machine.. Sendiri la tu kan?

13. Tempat yang paling seronok kamu mahu pegi?
Banyaak.. but now, Singapore.

14. Pelukan atau ciuman?
XoXo?

15. Butirkan 5 perkara tentang orang yang tag kamu.
Hanan Hayati binti Mamat
Kembar Mida =P
Antara juniors yg rapat wit me.
Berkaliber =D
Berhati suci.

16. 8 perkara yang amat saya gilai.
Babies.
Ciku.
Nangka.
Music.
Gossip Girl.
Driving.
Bercakap.
Rambut =P

17. 8 perkataan yang sering di ucapkan.
Ermm..
Ye kot..
Agak ar..
Eyh?
Hello..
The thing is..
Macam..
Gedik!

18. 8 buah buku yang paling terbaru dibaca.
If I were you.
It had to be you.
Aku terima nikahnya.
It Must Be Love.
Where Rainbows End.
If You Could See Me Now.
A Place Called Here.
Thanks for the Memories.

19. 8 lagu yang saya boleh dengar berulang kali.
Only Time by Enya.
I Miss You by Incubus.
Matahariku by Agnes Monica.
It's All Coming Back to Me Now by Celine Dion.
Butterfly by Mariah Carey.
She's Everything by Brad Paisley.
She Falls Asleep by McFly.
Please Forgive Me by Bryan Adams.

20. 8 perkara yang saya pelajari tahun lalu
Backing Off is not always a good thing.
Going back every weekend is fun.
No Laksa can beat Jusco Midvaley.
Easy come, easy go.
Stick with the one who makes you laugh, they're much less expensive than shrinks.
I am not that vulnerable.
If most people say so, it's not necessarily true.
Owh, Saya boleh menguasai Bahasa Melayu dengan baik.

21. Mari men'tag' 8 orang lain.
Nadia Munji.
Ijah.
Sapil.
Mila.
Abang.
Zarina.
Basirah.
Kamu.

Yup, Saye budak SSAAS =)

Heheee.. Yesterday I went to get Baby's (my sis) report card at her school.

Siti Nurfairuz & Siti Nurfathishah

SMKSSAAS.
I went to this school also for 3 years.
Actually biase je dtg this school sending my sisters off and fetching them etc. but I guess never stepped in kot.
So yesterday when I stepped into the school a sudden nostalgic rush came over me...
Huh! So after we picked up her report card I went around taking pictures =) giving special attention to the 'memorial spots'

Yes, I was a scout. (Ooops..)

This is where we assemble ('Buat Ladam')

We marched around this dewan. (I love marching)

Yes, I used to play Basketball.

This was where the court used to be. (Tar ok?, Jatuh Sakit)

Yes, I played netball. (I still do)

This was where the court used to be. (Used to be more sandy)

That was where the 2A guys cheered us from. Sweet =P (time tu x rase pon)

I walked to school =)

Dari sane...

Ke situ.. (3C 2000)

I walked everyday (if it's not raining) to school dgn Nadia, Wawa, Bawang skali if ade.. heehee.. Balik sekolah petang2 suka singgah kat tasik beli kopok lekor.. lazat~ =P Bile da skolah pagi tetibe they bertukar jadi Idan? ahha.. and Adlan gak on weekends =P

The Dewan.

This is where we had our assemblies, took our PMR, held school events
& this & that & all that jazz...

The Surau

This is the old surau. We used this one, they dont anymore.

They are now using the new building.

The Beloved Class (3C) tak sempat g 2A

Da bukan our class dah.. takde any trace of the decorations that we did pon.. hermm meja pon dah laen..
(What do u expect? It was 8 years ago)

This is where we (2A'sters from the previous session) would hang before the bell (rehat, masuk klas) heheee.. semangat 2A. From here, I did some skodeng2an senior =P sape I skodeng? ahahhaha~

The Badge


I am definitely coming back with a better camera.
Da plan dgn baby nk g Raja Muda gak. lalalalala~

Sekolahku yang tercenta,
SRK Raja Muda,
Tempat kudididik dan ditempa
Menjadi manusia berguna..

4M on facebook

Definitely want to go to Terendak as well. Tapi jauh

Penang!

..kami very very happy and feeling so lucky,
Penang warna warni macam pelangi,
Sini everything you see,
Our identity Penang tersendiri,
Unique, one and only.. Hoy!

...P. Ramlee the musical...

Saturday, Nov 22 - Tuesday Nov 25.
Followed my Maklang & Paklang to Penang.

Siti Nurfairuz & Melissa Amiera

Day 1

Soon as we arrived, we headed to my tokwan's sisters' houses. Tok Cik Amah & Tok Cak Bibah dekat Sungai Pinang. Then we headed to Tok Cik Pah's in Jelutong. We stayed a bit longer than planned due to the jam caused by Jom Heboh. After the highway cleared only we made our way to Tok Su Hassan's in Bayan Lepas.

We stayed here throughout our stay in Penang.

Thank you Tok Su. (GREAT hospitality)

Sampai2 je pegi pasar malam.

See? Satay 30sen jek.

Day 2

"Eh? Nape siper kakngah ade sebelah je?"


The dogs bawak lari and chewed on my slipper. heh! Doggie, what did i ever do to you? (tak pasal2 kene beli slipper baru)

Anyways, we must get going juge~ but this day, out of Penang.
We went to Pekan Rabu in Alor Star & Bukit Kayu Hitam. Huuu...

Ground floor of Pekan Rabu

And Kompleks Changlun ke ape.. maen redah je..
Malam to Queensbay Mall. Cantiiiikkk...
Tapi telupe bwk camera.

The Penang Bridge from Queensbay

Day 3

Hari menjeruk!



Then to Kompleks Bukit Jambul... huhuhu...

This is sooooo cool! Products of Extreme Chocolatier

And back to Queensbay.. ade camera tapi tak sebest camera yg sepatutnye ade last nite...
Haish!


Day 4

Dok borak2 dgn Tok Su Hasan sepanjang pagi before gerak balik. After saying our goodbyes we left. On the way, we took a detour into Kuala Kangsar. Maklang memborong..
huhuhuhuhu...

Banyak pics tak dpt nk upload sbb ade dkt camera laen2.. huhuhu...

All in all, SERONOK!!!

The Bad Ones aren't Always from Mars

you're climbing the stairs, unaware that she's hurting
bad and lying very still on the floor by the door
but it's locked cause she was hoping

you would come back for more

She Falls Asleep, McFly

In this case, he falls asleep.
I know I won't favour one side merely because I'm closer. (Right, Rocky?)* I'd root for the right side anyway.
But at this point, dear, you're the only one who can make it stop or make it better.
*He is not Rocky, Rocky is happy.

Holiday~

Spent the day babysitting my maksu's kids. =)
Tiba2 saye jadi ibu beranak 7.

Muhd Anas Mustakeem

When I arrived he was out playing, when he got home he made sandwiches. Semorg start mintak "Akeem, nk satu!" "saye nk jugak!" "saye nk jugak!"

Without being asked, suddenly he put up a show. Singing sayang2.. hik hik..

Mar Leiya Ayeesha

This is the baby of the family. Born on Aug 21 2006. Exactly 21 years younger than me.. hehe~
Kenit2 she was soooo antisocial. If a stranger even said 'Hi' to her, she would cry. huh! but not anymore!! dah boleh pegi join abang2 bergaduh.. hahah! Owh, I bathed this girl today. Guess it's been about 8 years since I bathed a baby. So much fun!

As a thank you, maksu gave me a cake for me to decorate~ my first one (lambatnye da 23 br dpt my 1st?)

Seronok!

tekun~
somehow the cake seems glowy

~~tadaaa~~

HUSM (saje2)

Saturday, Nov 15 2008, 9 am to Monday, Nov 17 3 am.

45 hours. 3 states; Pahang, Terengganu, Kelantan.

Haha! It might sound terrible but I guess it's not so bad. That's actually our journey for Pharmacy Practice IV visit to Hospital Universiti Sains Malaysia. Before the trip, many asked why in the world would we have to go to this place? Ape beza this place with others? Well, a whole lot! We were really amazed with the establishment of the pharmacy department here. Not to belittle the pharmacy department of the hospital that we have been attached to though. I guess afterall, USM is the leading pioneer of the profession in this country. Many of our lecturers and seniors in this profession graduated from USM. So it's no surprise that HUSM is claimed the leading pioneer of the practice. I'm sure many of us are now quite intrigued to apply for PRP here. And the long journey, hermm.. i guess saying it was worth it is quite overrated (maybe we should have been given the chance to berjalan2 like we did perak 2 yrs ago?) Still, the journey was something.

Left campus at 10 after a breakfast of Nasi Lemak. Can't sleep so I joined my friends. Erm, we sang. ahahhaha~ chronicochronologically, 70's, 80's, 90's xsempat2 nk masuk.. ahaha.. tapi sampai kerteh tak larat dah.. ahaha!

Alang2 da sampai area2 pantai timur ni our classmates berbaik hati hosted lunch, tea and dinner for us. We had lunch at Nadia's in Marang, tea at Duwe's in ermm.. mane? Nilam Puri eh? and dinner at Kak Asiyah's in ermm.. Kubang Kerian? =P thanks semua.. seronok!

Malam Saturday tu they brought us to Pasar Borong Wakaf Che Yeh. heee... tudung.. tudung.. but maybe penat (and CR kasi sejam jek?), takde la byk sgt semorg beli.. The next day after the visit to HUSM they brought us to Rantau Panjang pulak. Huhu.

Penat la bila da sampai.
Nk amek pics from ppl pn tak larat.
Hihi.
=P
(saje je nk tulis2)

yes you are.

when someone politely declines to

• chat with you
• answer your call
• layan casual texts with you

ask yourself,

are you married?

well, there you go.

i need help.

i really really really wanna feel merdeka like they feel..

like really really really...

saya ingin memahami dan mendalami erti kemerdekaan.

sila bantu saya.

berkenan~

sunglasses..

try and try pastu da berkenan.. tgk price RM 7++..
huh!

n : waaa.. sampai ati.. da la susah nk berkenan.. da berkenan cmni lak jadi..

f : aah.. da la susah nk berkenan.. hermmm... :(

p/s : i'm doing fine :)

penantian satu penyeksaan

yesterday went to midvalley to hang wit fanad n nadiamunji.
janji kol 11, i sampai at 1145, fanad arrived at 1, nad arrived at 2. heh!

so sementara menanti, tgh sale kan? huhu.. fay dgn hepatomegalynyer beli2 stuf (bukan shopping, beli2 barang).
lepas tu out of nowhere;
"hi, u're beautiful" said a foreign man.
fay pon dgn niat menjadi warganegara yang baek pon say "thanks" and bersembanglah dgn mamat ni..
he's from algeria and we talked and he asked to go to some place quiet. so i brought him to little penang cafe and to my surprise he said this place is quite inconvenient for what we're going to do.
i was like "what are we going to do?"
realizing he doesnt want to go to a quiet place to talk, (and mengawal perasaan and trying hard not to freak out) i said to him the lifesaving words.

"sorry, i have to go"

when i think back cam takuuutnyer.. friends, tolong la jgn biar me wander around tunggu korg lagi.. takuuut.... yg me ni pon baek sangat lak melayan.. bodo.. but siape expect kn? midvalley is a shopping mall pon, tatau lak ader perverts mencari mangsa..
tapi fanad pon belanja makan manhattan fish market.. so terubat sket ar but still, takuuuuut...