Rindu.

On Sunday we went to Ipoh. Ziarah kubur Pakngah. Clear2kn sket. Tahlil sket. We brought sume from Shah Alam. Air, daun pandan, bunga. For Pakngah. Mane nk cari tu kt Ipoh kn Pakngah? :) Throughout bacaan Yasin terasa a lump at my throat. Few times gak. Tahan.. Tahan.. But afterwards tu i can't. Sangat rindu..

Al-Fatihah.

Pakngah, I love you.

Loss

Semalam there was another loss. It has been one too many semenjak dua menjak nih. Hmm. I always think about who would be more affected. Like yesterday, "mesti diorg lagi sedih, tu atok diorg." I have been in the small circle of people who I'd say would be the most affected by the loss. It's not good. Not good at all.

Al-fatihah for Tok Uda. He was the last of Wan's siblings. Now tinggal Wan sorang. Wan sedih. I was sad too. And it made me think of my siblings. Sayanglah mereka. But yesterday, at least I get to see my sister :) lame weyh tak jumpe adekku sorg tu.

Al-Fatihah.

For Tok Uda.

For Pakngah.

For Nenek.

And for all.

Alhamdulillah ;)

Happy Birthday Abang.

Congratulations Chris.

Congratulations ME!

sambung.

Wednesday Jakarta.

Thursday Bandung.

Friday Bandung.

Saturday Bandung-Jakarta.

Sunday Jakarta-Shah Alam.

Monday?

Monday tidooooo je.. tanak bangun2.. tetibe bangun umah kosong.. smorg tak cuti.. pegi keje.. pegi kelas.. pegi skolah.. pegi kuar jmpe rakan2.. haha!

Musafir

is in Kuantan today.

tomorrow Terengganu-Kelantan.

Friday Kelantan.

Saturday Kelantan-Terengganu-Kuantan-Shah Alam.

Wednesday Jakarta.

Jalan. Jalan.

Bace doa ;)

There was a Man.

It was Monday.
I will never forget Bapak's voice when he said,
"Uz, kene kuat tau."

That was enough. Really.
Thoughts rushed through my mind but honestly what I was about to hear was not one of it.
"Pakngah meninggal."

There was no words coming out from me. Just tears. His departure was so unexpected. We just went to see him not a month ago. That weekend I remembered we had a lot going on. Mak just got back from a trip to Singapore. I took a daytrip to Bukit Tinggi and others had their own plans. But the next Monday was public holiday and we just went to Ipoh anyway. (But kitorg memang like just go. Jom. Really thankful for that) Now I know that fateful week of attachment at Wad Dahlia meant something. Allah is all-knowing. That's why I missed him so much that week. (I even thought of getting on a train to Ipoh) That was the last I saw of him. I did not know that. I did not expect that.

I couldn't be there. I was told later that day because they wanted me to focus on my exam that day. I love my family. Alhamdulillah everything went well. That's what I heard from Mak, Bapak, Maksu, Abang, Maklang and others who were there.

"Muka arwah nampak cantik sangat. Bersih. Bila celakkan nampak lagi cantik"

Alhamdulillah. Allah is all-knowing. 'Redha' abang kate. So I'll accept. Ini ending terbaik utk Pakngah. I'll accept. My parents said Pakngah pegi senang je. And Alhamdulillah semua dapat dtg and sempat tgk jenazah.

Everytime balik PJ would borak dgn Pakngah. Pakngah likes to greet people cm in his own way. For quite some years now he'd greet me 'Hey woman.' Then there's Pakngah's Teh. Serious. The best in the world. I already missed this since Pakngah went to Ipoh. And this... Hermm..

I am the most cengeng one in the family I think. I think after that call, Mak called at least 3 times that night checking up on me. Abang pn kate jgn nanges. Maksu pn kate she really hoped I'd be ok. Ijah marah Kakngah nanges kan? Uz pn tau tak elok nanges. But I've got smone temaning me. Thank you. :) And I plan to stop crying soon. don't worry.

Pakngah, Uz & Ijah datang visit this wiken eh?
I love you. We love you.

Yup, Saye budak SSAAS =)

Heheee.. Yesterday I went to get Baby's (my sis) report card at her school.

Siti Nurfairuz & Siti Nurfathishah

SMKSSAAS.
I went to this school also for 3 years.
Actually biase je dtg this school sending my sisters off and fetching them etc. but I guess never stepped in kot.
So yesterday when I stepped into the school a sudden nostalgic rush came over me...
Huh! So after we picked up her report card I went around taking pictures =) giving special attention to the 'memorial spots'

Yes, I was a scout. (Ooops..)

This is where we assemble ('Buat Ladam')

We marched around this dewan. (I love marching)

Yes, I used to play Basketball.

This was where the court used to be. (Tar ok?, Jatuh Sakit)

Yes, I played netball. (I still do)

This was where the court used to be. (Used to be more sandy)

That was where the 2A guys cheered us from. Sweet =P (time tu x rase pon)

I walked to school =)

Dari sane...

Ke situ.. (3C 2000)

I walked everyday (if it's not raining) to school dgn Nadia, Wawa, Bawang skali if ade.. heehee.. Balik sekolah petang2 suka singgah kat tasik beli kopok lekor.. lazat~ =P Bile da skolah pagi tetibe they bertukar jadi Idan? ahha.. and Adlan gak on weekends =P

The Dewan.

This is where we had our assemblies, took our PMR, held school events
& this & that & all that jazz...

The Surau

This is the old surau. We used this one, they dont anymore.

They are now using the new building.

The Beloved Class (3C) tak sempat g 2A

Da bukan our class dah.. takde any trace of the decorations that we did pon.. hermm meja pon dah laen..
(What do u expect? It was 8 years ago)

This is where we (2A'sters from the previous session) would hang before the bell (rehat, masuk klas) heheee.. semangat 2A. From here, I did some skodeng2an senior =P sape I skodeng? ahahhaha~

The Badge


I am definitely coming back with a better camera.
Da plan dgn baby nk g Raja Muda gak. lalalalala~

Sekolahku yang tercenta,
SRK Raja Muda,
Tempat kudididik dan ditempa
Menjadi manusia berguna..

4M on facebook

Definitely want to go to Terendak as well. Tapi jauh

Penang!

..kami very very happy and feeling so lucky,
Penang warna warni macam pelangi,
Sini everything you see,
Our identity Penang tersendiri,
Unique, one and only.. Hoy!

...P. Ramlee the musical...

Saturday, Nov 22 - Tuesday Nov 25.
Followed my Maklang & Paklang to Penang.

Siti Nurfairuz & Melissa Amiera

Day 1

Soon as we arrived, we headed to my tokwan's sisters' houses. Tok Cik Amah & Tok Cak Bibah dekat Sungai Pinang. Then we headed to Tok Cik Pah's in Jelutong. We stayed a bit longer than planned due to the jam caused by Jom Heboh. After the highway cleared only we made our way to Tok Su Hassan's in Bayan Lepas.

We stayed here throughout our stay in Penang.

Thank you Tok Su. (GREAT hospitality)

Sampai2 je pegi pasar malam.

See? Satay 30sen jek.

Day 2

"Eh? Nape siper kakngah ade sebelah je?"


The dogs bawak lari and chewed on my slipper. heh! Doggie, what did i ever do to you? (tak pasal2 kene beli slipper baru)

Anyways, we must get going juge~ but this day, out of Penang.
We went to Pekan Rabu in Alor Star & Bukit Kayu Hitam. Huuu...

Ground floor of Pekan Rabu

And Kompleks Changlun ke ape.. maen redah je..
Malam to Queensbay Mall. Cantiiiikkk...
Tapi telupe bwk camera.

The Penang Bridge from Queensbay

Day 3

Hari menjeruk!



Then to Kompleks Bukit Jambul... huhuhu...

This is sooooo cool! Products of Extreme Chocolatier

And back to Queensbay.. ade camera tapi tak sebest camera yg sepatutnye ade last nite...
Haish!


Day 4

Dok borak2 dgn Tok Su Hasan sepanjang pagi before gerak balik. After saying our goodbyes we left. On the way, we took a detour into Kuala Kangsar. Maklang memborong..
huhuhuhuhu...

Banyak pics tak dpt nk upload sbb ade dkt camera laen2.. huhuhu...

All in all, SERONOK!!!

Holiday~

Spent the day babysitting my maksu's kids. =)
Tiba2 saye jadi ibu beranak 7.

Muhd Anas Mustakeem

When I arrived he was out playing, when he got home he made sandwiches. Semorg start mintak "Akeem, nk satu!" "saye nk jugak!" "saye nk jugak!"

Without being asked, suddenly he put up a show. Singing sayang2.. hik hik..

Mar Leiya Ayeesha

This is the baby of the family. Born on Aug 21 2006. Exactly 21 years younger than me.. hehe~
Kenit2 she was soooo antisocial. If a stranger even said 'Hi' to her, she would cry. huh! but not anymore!! dah boleh pegi join abang2 bergaduh.. hahah! Owh, I bathed this girl today. Guess it's been about 8 years since I bathed a baby. So much fun!

As a thank you, maksu gave me a cake for me to decorate~ my first one (lambatnye da 23 br dpt my 1st?)

Seronok!

tekun~
somehow the cake seems glowy

~~tadaaa~~

thank God for ijah (& christopher)

I'm not the kind who'd fleet at the first signs of trouble.

I always like to try and work things out.

But not this time. I don't know why.

Tired I guess.

Not the first time this sort of thing happens to me.
Not the only person I've had this kind of problems with.

I truly feel everyone will be happier this way.
I know I will =)
(though I really hate it when i have nowhere to turn to..)

Sorry if you don't feel the same.

Aidilfitri

eid.

=) festive!

of course these kinds of events, the kids are the most excited lot. since my house the baby pon da besar so the suasana in the house not as meriah. but wait till we go to umah maktok, umah wan.. huu... many people say raya kat bandar tak semeriah raya kat kampung.. herm..

well, as someone yang takde kampung i cannot really agree or disagree la with that. because this is the only way i ever knew how to spend raya. cukup meriah =)my first cousins je da ade lebey kurang 60 org. huuu.. campur lagi anak2 my cousins yang da kawen.. meriah!

tambah lagi both my parents' families mmg basically local. selangorian. (my penang tokwan's siblings pon byk dah pindah sini). so my cuti up to raya ke5 pon tak sempat lagi abeskan berkunjung rumah sedara mara. but as the saying goes (walaupun tak berapa betul), puasa sebulan so raya pon sebulan la.. sempat lagi.. hihi..

family and friends,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,

Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Abang kate..

"rilekkk.."


"chillll..."


"redha..."


and that's exactly what i'm gonna do~

i love my maktok

tadi teman my maktok pegi appointment dekat ppum..
lamenyer menunggu..
and they call numbers bukan ikut turutan kn?
so each time they announce number me and maktok would be like "kite ke? kite ke?"
and i said, "maktok, kite da macam tunggu nombor ekor naek lak"
maktok laughed.

bout five years back,
maktok lincah, buat katering utk functions, masak mcm2 byk2 utk ktorg sumer...
now, jalan kene pimpin, at times need help doing things that previously can be done on her own..
bukan nk complain on fate.. but it makes u sad bile pk..
sbb maktok tak suke susahkn org..
often she cried bile ktorg dtg sume bile she got admitted or dtg tmn g appointment or just dtg jenguk maktok..
dalam nanges she once said "susahkan korg jer"
takla maktok.. tak susah pon.. sket pon tak susah...

but we're still grateful that at least most of the time maktok bole manage herself..
ade lagi org yg lagi kurang bernasib baek..

maktok,
i love you..
we all love you..