There was a Man.

It was Monday.
I will never forget Bapak's voice when he said,
"Uz, kene kuat tau."

That was enough. Really.
Thoughts rushed through my mind but honestly what I was about to hear was not one of it.
"Pakngah meninggal."

There was no words coming out from me. Just tears. His departure was so unexpected. We just went to see him not a month ago. That weekend I remembered we had a lot going on. Mak just got back from a trip to Singapore. I took a daytrip to Bukit Tinggi and others had their own plans. But the next Monday was public holiday and we just went to Ipoh anyway. (But kitorg memang like just go. Jom. Really thankful for that) Now I know that fateful week of attachment at Wad Dahlia meant something. Allah is all-knowing. That's why I missed him so much that week. (I even thought of getting on a train to Ipoh) That was the last I saw of him. I did not know that. I did not expect that.

I couldn't be there. I was told later that day because they wanted me to focus on my exam that day. I love my family. Alhamdulillah everything went well. That's what I heard from Mak, Bapak, Maksu, Abang, Maklang and others who were there.

"Muka arwah nampak cantik sangat. Bersih. Bila celakkan nampak lagi cantik"

Alhamdulillah. Allah is all-knowing. 'Redha' abang kate. So I'll accept. Ini ending terbaik utk Pakngah. I'll accept. My parents said Pakngah pegi senang je. And Alhamdulillah semua dapat dtg and sempat tgk jenazah.

Everytime balik PJ would borak dgn Pakngah. Pakngah likes to greet people cm in his own way. For quite some years now he'd greet me 'Hey woman.' Then there's Pakngah's Teh. Serious. The best in the world. I already missed this since Pakngah went to Ipoh. And this... Hermm..

I am the most cengeng one in the family I think. I think after that call, Mak called at least 3 times that night checking up on me. Abang pn kate jgn nanges. Maksu pn kate she really hoped I'd be ok. Ijah marah Kakngah nanges kan? Uz pn tau tak elok nanges. But I've got smone temaning me. Thank you. :) And I plan to stop crying soon. don't worry.

Pakngah, Uz & Ijah datang visit this wiken eh?
I love you. We love you.