Friday, July 31, 2009


you are so sweet with your imbauan kenangan.
I like those kenangan. (though I don't remember some of it)
greetings were nice as well.
and that little thing;
as much as it is a surprise, it is a relief.
you are so sweet.
I is very happy.

Monday, July 27, 2009


you have to stay inside.
quiet. dont make any sound.
you have to keep it low. hidden.
I'm still working on the because.

there are many reasons to hide your feelings especially when u're feeling sad.
but i never thought i would have to hide how happy I am.
how I wish I could let it all out.

this happiness makes me a bit sad.

Saturday, July 25, 2009


I'm exactly like you.
why can't we understand?
Single does not always mean available.
Don't get attached to me.
I'll hurt you.
It's not cool to change your mind when we agreed upon something.
I'm sorry.

Friday, July 24, 2009

not going to klcc nor johor

Tidak pernah ku sangka
Rupanya kau lebih ku cinta
Dari hati yang putih
Ku hadir untukmu sayang

Aku turut merasa gelora
Yang menghempas jiwa
Biar lama ku tunggu
Ku pasti kau tiba

Kau selalu menduga, menguji
Kejujuran di kamar hati
Membuatku dihimpit oleh keresahan

Kita memendam rasa dan bermimpi
Terbang ke langit
Langit yang tinggi
Bertemankan awan indah memutih

Sambut tanganku sayang
Bawa ku ke syurga impian
Tiada lagi curiga
Kaulah yang ku cinta

Thursday, July 23, 2009


Things may be a certain way in your mind but a very different one when it gets out in the open. Often I find myself realizing something new when I share my thoughts with those around me rather than just keeping it to myself. One too many times, I realized how I really feel about a certain issue and it is totally different from what I thought it is. Not all of us are wired the same way but this works for me. To talk it out to sort things out. And I'm really greatful to you and you and you. I love you and you and you.

I guess this is not goodbye afterall.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

You filled the blank

i was hoping to fill that blank with something.
and it was successfully filled with a session with you.
i am so happy. i miss u dearest sister.
we should meet up more often la!

Monday, July 20, 2009


final countdown.
your wooing and caterpillaring.
i'm sooo claiming.
all the while reimbursing ur claim as well.

natasha, sing it!

estrogen, sush it!

Saturday, July 18, 2009

easily touched.

you painted such a nice picture.
with little words.
i'm still giddy inside.

Thursday, July 16, 2009

All About Everything.

Went for drinks with the girls last night. One thing for sure, we've grown. Past the phase not a girl not yet a woman. It has been so long since I last lost track of time. But last night I was soo surprised to see my watch strokes 1. I was like
"What? last I check it was only 11pm."
Maybe it was the crowd. Or the frequency that I get this crowd. There were Me, Maya, Sara and Basirah. We get together like, once a year? (barely la). We talked about cultures (of other parts of the world), jobs, studies other than the usual reminisce of the school days. Surrounding tables were replaced with new people and still there we were, going on and on.

I had lots of fun.
Thank you girls.
Me love you.

and we miss those who cant be there.

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Sweet & Twisted.

When this life tried to keep us apart,
YOU keep calling me back to your heart.
i like!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

It's not a Big Deal


The truth is, 1 in every 2.7 men will cheat sooner or later, according to relationship expert Gary Neuman, author of "The Truth About Cheating."

Sometimes men cheat to get out of the relationship, or because they want to leave, but are afraid of being alone. They're attracted to the new girl, but they're afraid she'll dump them, so they keep the wife or girlfriend at home, just in case it doesn't work out. It's cowardly, but common.

Some biologists have proposed a theory that cheating is built right into men.
The idea of just not cheating doesn't seem to occur to some men.

Only 7% of men will do that, and if he's actually confessing, he's either pretty sure you won't leave him over it, or he's done with you.

One Way To Tell if he's Cheating : He's suddenly very suspicious of you.

A lot of women choose to simply walk away. It's the simplest solution and the surest way to be safe. Very often when a man is forgiven for cheating, he takes this as permission to cheat again, and the couple get locked into a pattern. The only way to be certain he knows you won't put up with it, is to walk out the door. Unfortunately, that means you're out there again, looking for that man who won't cheat on you.

1 in 2.7?
That's almost inevitable.
So next question is :

Are u the cheated one or the one he's cheating with?

Our Little Messenger

" kate, doing doing."
"kak fairuz kate, doing doing doing."
ear to ear,
in the same room.
this was years ago. at a raya gathering i think.
i guess we were still in school.

but yesterday, years after;
" kate, doing doing doing."
"kak fay kate, doing doing."
window to window
not in the same room.
here we are.
again, still.

I is very happy.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Alhamdulillah ;)

Happy Birthday Abang.
Congratulations Chris.
Congratulations ME!

Thursday, July 9, 2009


i know u know.
so i wouldn't say.
i know u know.
so here i stay.

Thursday, July 2, 2009

~ there

There's something sweet
And almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
But now he's dear, and so unsure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before

She glanced this way
I thought I saw
And when we touched she didn't shudder at my paw
No it can't be, I'll just ignore
But then she's never looked at me that way before

New and a bit alarming
Who'd have ever thought that this could be?
True that he's no Prince Charming
But there's something in him that I simply didn't see